Rejection

It came today. The small envelope. The dreaded small envelope.

I got rejected from the place that spent $800 to fly me out to California. My number one choice of firm. Why? I have no idea. I have replayed every moment of the entire afternoon in my head trying to figure out where it went wrong and I really do not know. But I am going to try to stop thinking about it.

I cried. I called my parents and Alex. I let my roommate hug me even though I'm not a 'huggy' person. I ate the stash of deluxe mac and cheese that I have on reserve for a bad day. I am going to read tax. And I am going to try to not think about the job stuff until the weekend where I can restrategize.

I know all the things that people say. 'Things will work out,' 'it's their loss,' 'something better will come up,' etc. I know it because I am so used to being the one who says it. And I actually do believe it. Right now I am just getting over the shock of it all.