Chugging Along

I've been getting a lot of people asking me how I'm doing, whether just part of normal conversation or because they know that I have finals this week. I never really know how to answer, other to say that I'm fine. As cliche as that might sound, it's really the best way to describe how I'm feeling.

I wouldn't say I'm great because I don't particularly enjoy spending all day reviewing for my classes. My mind is so immersed in torts right now that when I took a nap, my mind starting picking apart my dream looking for proximate cause and negligence. If I didn't actively look for excuses to go outside, like go to the grocery store or go to church, it would be easy for me to stay cooped up in my apartment all day and not realize that I hadn't breathed fresh air that day.

But on the other hand, I wouldn't say I'm miserable because studying is not excruciatingly painful either (taking the actual tests is a whole different story.) There's a little part of me that finds immense pleasure when the lightbulb goes on. Moreover, studying all day isn't that much of a departure from how the past 3 months of school have been. Just replace classes with review sessions or study groups and my schedule seems practically the same. Finally, coming for the quarter system where things go by so fast, you have no reading period, and you're likely to talk finals on concurrent days- if not on the same day, I feel like my endurance for testing has been built up. Granted most of those tests were easier, with notable exceptions like art history where I had to memorize a million slides, but the quarter system hyperspeed definitely built up stamina.

So that's how I am. And only 10 days until I'll go from fine to exuberant.